Here I am being lazy again. I was suppose to practice driving but since it rained and I had some kind of tooth surgery, I decided to sit and browse the net again (Saturday is Tumblr day!). Then I found out that my Facebook account was hacked! Not only that, I was afraid same happened to my personal email account. T_T
My fears were valid when I found that the hacker confirmed all the "friend requests". I have no personal grudge to those people who sent invites to add me as their "friend". I just don't know them personally nor have a close relationship whatsoever. So I started cleaning up and adding security to my account for the meantime. I do hope whoever hacked my FB will grow boils on their eyelids and sprout mushrooms on their mouth.
*Time skip*
On another note, my parents and aunts were discussing the pamamanhikan for one of the daughters of a family that is really close to us. Apparently it didn't go well - from what I heard from the rants of my mother and tita, they found out that the guy's family was really matapobre and did not give shit about what the family of the girl wants for the upcoming wedding, since the girl is not well off and the parents are "not educated". Then they went on about it is a sign that the girl's happiness will be doomed because their families will never accept each other.
Now, this might be a common occurrence in the provinces, and sometimes hypothetical situation has been talked about within my family. It still seems strange to me that in this modern society, such atrocity still exists. Then they turned to me and told me that this should not happen to me, nor should I consort with similar kind of people especially since I'm in the marrying age now and by heaven I should choose the right kind of people for us.
I cannot, of course, answer them right away. But it still made me think about the future. Even now that I'm writing this I'm still unsure on what to do. Whoever said that when you marry, you are marrying into the family and friends, and the whole community is correct. In my world anyway. I'm just glad that my sister already found that person for her who accepts us in every way. Me on the other hand, fails miserably. And whoever said that you cannot excel both in love and career at the same time is also correct, in my case.
That being said, I will go against my statement about this not being a rant blog (because I'm not in college anymore). But I need this. And this is for you:
I know I told you to do right by her. But I did not say you do right by her while at the same time you have the face to tell me you love me. I know that we have been dancing around each other, and I agree when you told me that we are somewhat like criminals hiding. Because I'm still guilty of hurting her (might be indirectly but it doesn't matter now) and you have betrayed her and my trust.
You should have told me. I can and will accept honesty. Somehow I'm still grateful to myself that I did not give my heart to you, because this happened. But it doesn't mean it hurts any less. It's unfortunate that I'm such a great detective because now I found out that You are a liar.
